Desucon... The first best con ever!

So... Little while ago, there was the annual Desucon in Lahti. I'm not explaining what it is, google it if you're interested XD

Usually, the conventions where I go end up badly, or otherwise go so badly that I only want to cry at the end, and nothing good stays in mind from the event.

This time, however, was different. Reasons being many. I put them under own headers.

Firstly

The Cosplay

I worked really hard for this cosplay and though I messed up with my wig and wigsock (?), it looked pretty good too.

So this is my cosplay. Not perfect, but the best I have made xD So the character is Kasukabe You from series "Mondaiji tachi ga Isekai kara Kuru soudesuyo?" Below is a picture of her.

Yeah, not perfect.... But it was comfortable enough to move about and I didn't have the urge to change into normal clothing as with Mio in the first Frostbite. But that goddamn wig kept rising all the time and in the end I got so annoyed with it, that I simply took it off.

The Loot from Desucon

Other best thing where the loot I bought from there.

 Hope                                              &                                              Serah

These two figures are the best ~ I bought them together with my friend Veera. The package had Serah, Lightning, Hope and Sazh, but since I only wanted Hope and she wanted Lightning, we agreed to buy it together. So I got these two and Veera got Lightning and Sazh. It cost 35 euros so we divided it as 17,50 per head.

Ramune - strawberry soda ~

I bought these again, together with Veera xD Since it was 12 euros four bottles of Ramune, and both wanted it, so we divided them. I only use this picture as reference. I got one strawberry and the other one was orange. Quite good actually. You'd think that orange soda would taste like Jaffa or Fanta, but this didn't. I wonder why.

Supposedly silk fan on bamboo...

... I noticed this on one table. It wasn't exactly cheap, but I couldn't help myself because it was so pretty. And after I had bought it, I succumbed to the fact that apparently I collect fans. So... Yeah. No reason whatsoever. But what caught me in that table was another type of fan which had curvy frame instead of straight one like this one that I bought. But I just had to buy this when I noticed it and only afterwards understood that I was SUPPOSED to buy the one with curly frame. Oh well, maybe from next con. (BTW, it was 10 €)

I nearly forgot this. Of course, I bought the newest Black Butler (Kuroshitsuji) too. Since I'm actively collecting it :)

This was the last thing I bought from there.  And I wasn't supposed to buy this... It was bought on impulse. I was, again, supposed to, buy Attack on Titan 1 book, but OF COURSE they didn't have them. So I didn't have any manga to buy then. I was at first planning to buy Romeo x Juliet, but I saw this. And, I love this series. So without further ado, I bought it. And realized that it hasn't been on stores for long. Maybe few months. And I got it immediately on time. So now I'm collecting this manga :D

All in all, I like the things I bought from there :)

Meetings and Company and The Late Night Animecompetition

This was the biggest thing. Seriously. I wasn't alone almost at all during this convention. Which ultimately made it the best con ever. I met all these sweet persons with whom I always talk in Twitter. I met so many I'm not sure I remember everyone :'D So this is common to all who I met: Thank you so very much ♥ You saved my con and made my day as good as it was. Thank you ~

Above that, Absolutely the biggest hugs go to Essi, Anni, Veera and Milla ;A; First of all, Veera and Milla nicely spent time with me and we had fun with my camera. Not to forget that photosession :'''D First time someone said to my face that I don't look happy when being taking photo at. Sorry for ruining them.

But yeah. Anni was an angel. I met with her, and stayed with her and lots of other persons too who I knew from Twitter. And it was the first time ever I went to eat with such a big group (there was like, 7 of us :'D hesburger must have liked). And this party had this Yata and Mikoto who were so cool and cute that I nearly couldn't handle it :'D (it was compliment!) But Anni first hand almost made sure that I wasn't alone. (perhaps she didn't, she was so friendly it felt like it).

And Essi was the second angel. We had signed up for the late night anime competition, where you saw small pieces of bigger photos and had to guess who the character was and from what series (damn those bishounen). I'll write more about it later.

I was sitting with Anni and the rest when Essi came with Sanna (they cosplayed Oshitari Yuushi and Mukahi Gakuto from Prince of Tennis ;A;) and spent time with them, not to forget Kati who nicely told us something about the competition (as she was one of those who kept it.) And she let me see her BJD doll (I think it was BJD XD) which was soooo cute that I started to want (again) one for myself too.

Meeting and being that competition with Essi was the best xD I have talked to her most in twitter so it was so much fun to finally see her in person and spend time with her.

And about that competition.... Curse them. We got lead at first, but then there was all these GIRLS, and not a single guy (not to mention those.... old guys) and we didn't get those bishounen. Argh >^<

In the end, we ran out of time, and they had to cut it shorter, and of course after that came characters with glasses and those goddamn school uniforms! (I love them and pay them most attention). Dammit!

My parents came to pick me up and they almost ran out of patience while waiting for me. I went to sleep at 3 AM. (incidentally, I did that yesterday too ;D)

The Sunday was calmer, and I didn't meet with people that much. I only met one of my friend at the ending ceremony and went home with her as her mother gave me a lift.

But Sunday was mainly the day when I went to different panels. I forced myself up before the con begin again, since Essi was keeping a panel from sports series and I wanted to go there. Lots of Prince of Tennis, and the best, Kenya and Shiraishi playing ;A; I nearly started crying. Especially at Shiraishi's ecstasy shout.
She introduced few series with few of them actually being interesting (and the Dear Boys op still rings in my head though I haven't listened it after it!)

Her panel went well, though I ran out little earlier as I wanted to get that bishie panel (which was the best! So hot things in there :'''''DDD)

What have I forgotten... Quite a bit. But this post keeps getting longer, so I cut it out now :'D Nothing personnal if I forgot something.

Oh! Desucon's theme song was the best :D And it was big surprise to suddenly see Aki Hata in the stage and the fact that she sang the theme herself for us ♥ Come to think of it, I didn't see Akemi Okamura even once. She was late at the opening ceremony and had already left when the ending ceremony came.

And Chottochoco's dance perfomance was the loveliest as always ♥ though those yukata's didn't seem to stay on :D

Something like this. Thanks again for everyone I saw in Desucon (and thanks for that tasty strawberry cake ♥)

 Sorry for all the typos you find :')

At least to somewhere

I have been thinking, am I invisible? Or am I just shit that doesn't need to be paid attention unless you happen to feel bad?

I'm feeling like shit right now. I have had this feeling for... pretty much always? It just resurfaces from time to time before sinking again. And every time, it's pure hell.

I have never had many friends. I was teased in elementary school so I didn't have any there. I got at least some by the time I was in junior high and high school.... But in the end, it always comes back to this.

I seem to be the only one who keeps my own relationships alive. If I stop communicating with my "friends" they stop speaking to me altogether. Why? What is WRONG with me that no one talks to me? Why am I always home? Why won't ever anyone ask if they could spend time with me?

I feel like I'm begging for money when I beg my friends to be with me. They don't call and ask how I am. They don't call and ask if I want to go for a walk (for example). They don't speak to me at all.

WHY?!

This is something I probably won't ever understand. But I'd really like to know, what I am to my friends since I'm not worth of their time.

Friendship isn't all on me. You have to do something for it too.

I'm tired. I'm tired of ALWAYS keeping my relationships alive. So now, I won't. You won't talk to me? Great. I won't talk to you. Watch me disappear from people's minds.

Because that's all I'm good for apparently.

Random facts about my life at this very moment

So... I was supposed to create a new post after I got my Blippo's packet, but the first one never came when I ordered it in December and second got through in March.

It didn't have much stuff that I liked. The best things in there were V6 Voyager album and an umbrella. I got stuffed doll of Ace (One piece). Shame really, that I hate One piece over anything. Well I don't really HATE it... It just that I know myself. If I were to watch even a glimpse of the anime, I'll probably get hooked in it. Which I don't want. That's one of those series whose characters doesn't sustain any injuries or anything, and whatever they go through they won't bleed. Little different from Naruto's anime since they'll cough up blood even if they get a scratch on the arm.

But yeah...

Tomorrow is the entrance exams for clothing school... I'm a little nervous. I'll do my best in there, though I would rather go to the university which has exams later this month. But I have zero confidence in myself about getting in with a first try.

Point is I need to have at least one school which I'm accepted into because I want to go back to school.

The Christmas Eve and New Year

The Christmas Eve

For Christmas last year, it was usual and still so different from the rest. The biggest difference was that both me and mum weren't in a Christmas mood. Mum thought it a little bothersome and that she just couldn't find the strength to be as chirpy as she usually is during Christmas time. And me? I was in a seriously bad mood. When mum and my sister avoided talking to me, and mum just kept coming to speak to me about irrelevant things and finally asked if i wanted to be alone or could she just come and blab.
I replied that if I wanted to be alone, I'd close the door.

Truthfully I didn't want to be alone at that time. So I gave mum permission to speak to me.

The other different thing was that we didn't eat like we used to. I'm different in that that I hate Christmas food. Pretty much all of them. Usually on the 24th day, mum makes lasagne and me and dad eat it. But this time she didn't and instead I ate Spring rolls. It was good though.

By the way, I think my grumpiness was due to fact that I wanted so badly to go watch Rise of the Guardians again though I couldn't. I was determined to watch The Santaclaus and Witchdrum (Joulupukki ja Noitarumpu), but after I started seeing resemblances in it, I just couldn't watch it anymore.

Now about my presents that I got :D

This image is of part one of all my presents xD The four euros I got aren't there though :D

And this is part two. It hold the clothes and the Book. Those socks went well enough in my feet, except the bright red at the left. No matter how soft they are, they just simply are too small to use comfortably. Granny said when I complained that there weren't any bigger. If there AREN'T any bigger, don't buy the too small then for heaven's sake!

This is a figure (or toy) of Jack Frost from McDonald's that my sister and granny bought for me xD Yeah, I'm a really big fan of the RIse of the Guardians, so of course this and one other toy were a must.

This is the third part. It's a box made of canvas :D And inside of it is lovely balls of yarn. That yellow green is sooo soft, it feels so lovely. Also there's one pair of #4 long bambu knitting and #3 and #3,5 knitting needles for socks and the like.

The left one is very cheery and has colorful pages. I fell in love with it in Tiger, but didn't have the money to buy it. Neechan took it and bought it, because she felt sorry for my reaction or something :D There are lines inside so it's good one to write into. The left one is the second of my two fairy notebooks. I looked for screw top notebooks from Hollola, Lahti and Helsinki and found these in the last one's Sokos. I found these again in Lahti were granny bought two to me. This has pure white pages so that I can use it as a sketchbook.

This is one book that neechan didn't like so she thrusted it in my arms and said happy Christmas. I think it has a war between werewolves and vampires and my sister hates them both so... I liked it when I started, then it had the most... interesting... way to start a chapter. I hope I can read it afterwards because of it :D

This is my most expensive present. Seriously. I was with granny when she bought these. The movepack cost 59,90€ and the Sorcery 39,90€. And she bought the two of them at the same time. The sorcery was little disappointing despite the fact that it's humor was great. I played it in... 8 hours. About. I liked it, though it could have been longer (my arm is happy for it's shortness however xD)

These are the nice little things that I got. The left one is quartz and it costed about 10 €. But I just wanted one with clear  and big crystals. The right one is amethyst and it was a complete surprise. That's the third one of amethysts that I have.

The New Year's Eve

I don't have any photos of this weekend that I spent with my sister at her house. And, to be honest, there isn't much to say since I can't remember exactly what we did then xD oh! We watched both K and Kuroko no Basket that weekend. K had only 13 episodes so we started it from the beginning. We watched about 5 episodes of Kuroko no Basket's beginning and then moved to where we had earlier left off to the episode 18. She fell completely in love with the series because of it, Sanna I mean.

Our parents gave us money too, on 31st day and we were able to go McDonald's to have annual eating session xD

The rest of the evening was sooooo boring. Nothing really happened.

At midnight, we went outside to the children's park and sports field near Sanna's home and she just insisted that she wanted to play with a swing for a bit. She looked stupid and I couldn't help but laugh, but despite looking idiot, she was so happy too, so I didn't say anything. She then invented a great place for us to "sit" on, and we climbed the some kind of rope pyramid and, standing there, watched the fireworks her neighbors came to shoot.

Last year, apparently, someone had bought a fantastic firework that shot rockets for nearly a minute one after another. Sanna looked a little disappointed that we weren't able to see it this year, because she had previously just stood her mouth open because it looked so beautiful.

We didn't have to regret coming out however, since there was on like last year's this year too! It was awesome. I haven't seen in many years something so pretty. We went back in a little later and I just have to deal with her wanting to hug me. I also found one family's eye protectors and got thanks in return.
Back in we watched Asian Music Awards. We weren't happy about the fact that it was only about Koreans and not Japanese, but the guys there were so freaking hot that I couldn't help but drool. I also learned to love Super Junior because of it (and due to fact that those singers just HAD TO flirt to the camera when it zoomed on them.)

All in all, it was a nice weekend. One of the best new year's I've ever had. It would have been nicer if we had had a little more money but all's well that ends well. And I think it was nicer than normal because when we were out, Sanna seemed genuinely so happy of me being there right then that I wouldn't change it to anything else.

For the first time

I got this strange urge that drove me into FINALLY modifying this blog of mine which has been created probably almost five months ago. I haven't been able to write in here due to the fact that I wanted to edit it to perfection (or to at least satisfy my needs) before first post.

I was supposed to write a post about Tracon in September... But that con went so badly, so wrong that I do not want to remember it.

Then I was, at first, going to go with my friend while cosplaying Persona 4's Shirogane Naoto and Kujikawa Rise. But my friend couldn't make it, so I left there on my own.

Well, I HAD my sister with me, but she only went to visit her friend and so I spent the time alone. Literally. I met with few (one I believe) my friends but it was only for a minute.

And at first I thought that I was going to be late for it. Thank god, the opening ceremony didn't start when I thought it should have, and I could so see Chotto Choco's dance performance. I think it's because of nice music that is very loud that always makes me sentimental, but I still almost cried then. In every single dance performance of theirs, I always have to suppress my crying xD Of course, the other huge factor is the dance itself. I'd love to dance like that with my friends sometime but because my knee is shit, I can't. I mean, it shifts vertically and it always feels like driving a needle through it even if I'm only walking when it happens. It doesn't hurt for long though. And I noticed that IF I have knee supporter on I actually CAN dance. Me and my sister danced dance game last time we were on a cruise and I was so happy. Now that I think about it, I'm really happy when I dance. I wonder why.

But anyway. I bought lovely things from Tracon, but before I tell about them, I'm going to share my adventure in the center of Tampere, alone, for an hour, in the downpour with the broken umbrella.
I walked around for over an HOUR trying to find Hesburger in that freaking rain. The umbrella broke little after, but thankfully it protected me from the worst rain. It had already subsided by the time it broke. I walked from Tamperehouse to Koskikeskus not finding that restaurant no matter what. At the Koskikeskus my legs were hurting like hell and I managed to shift that bad knee of mine and then I limped for a while on top of everything else.

By then I was ready to cry. So I called my mum, who was at home and asked her help in finding that cursed restaurant. I backtracked and finally found it. With long queue AND a realization that you could see Tamperehouse from it's doors. Oh yes, you just had to turn right from the front door and you would have gotten there FAST. I turned left. And nearly got lost.

The only positive thing about that con was what I bought. I bought  Black butler X and Nurarihyon no Mago 2. Also, the nicest thing was Yukionna figure from that lastly mentioned series. It is my first big figure and even now I love it so much. It was rather shocking however that the figure was broken. I noticed it a little while before we went home and I wasn't in a shape to walk back to Tamperehouse (because we were near Koskikeskus by then) so I let it go. I glued it together using my school's glue with the help of my art teacher. It isn't exactly pretty, but it holds. At least for now.

The other thing I bought (which was expensive and rather useless) was Persona 4 figure. Very small one with magnet on it's head. It was surprise box so I didn't know which I would get, but luckily I got The Protagonist without glasses. I would have liked Naoto though.

When we were going home, me and my sister, we waited on a bus at the station, some drunken old man swayed around there. We avoided him the best we could and sighed from relief when we were safely inside the bus and coming back home. We declared that we do not like Tampere, so I'm guessing we're not coming there in near future.

At home mum had made me lasagne (which I love) and I was super happy. And I was back home at... 11 p.m? About.

I was just so happy to be back at home.

And it was my worst con ever.

Here are two figures I bought. By the way, the part that was broken from Yukionna was that spoon in her hand. It was in two.